Crash

In case you were wondering why I have not posted in over a week, it is because my laptop crashed. The hard drive died, and I lost everything. Everything.

No more old papers from school.
No more notes written to Jesse.
No more of my old documents for work.
No more address book with the information of everyone I know.
No more Favorites, with my links to fun blogs.
No more Adobe Acrobat.

And worst of all,
No more pictures.

Yes, I lost it all. I lost my pictures. I lost all pictures of Ryleigh. Granted, my camera is still full of her pictures, and I can grab files from this blog and other photo albums I had uploaded elsewhere, but that was not all of them.

I lost ALL pictures from before Ryleigh. Our honeymoon. When we moved into the house. All our "before" pictures we were going to use to show the impovements we have made. Our puppy pictures. Our trip to Mexico together. Pictures from the baby showers. Pictures of my pregnant belly (Which I'm kind of okay losing...). Pictures from Julie's special events. My nephews baseball and soccer games. Graduation.

Everyone keeps telling me, "those are just physical signs of a memory that you have in your heart." Yes, that is true. But I do not have a photogenic memory. I take pictures all the time BECAUSE I know I will forget. And I dont want to.

I'm heart-broken.

I feel so stupid for not backing up my precious pictures. I work in a technical world, for crying out loud, and hear of people's computers "crashing" all the time. Honestly, I thought they were being dramatic. I thought I was invinsible. I'm not.

A friend from work is attempting to recover any data that is not corrupt. I'll know more next week whether anything could be saved. As of now, it is not looking good.

LEARN FROM MY MISTAKE. Back up your data. Print off your memories. Store copies of your pictures on a CD, flash drive, external hard drive...or all of the above. I had to learn the hard way. Don't let that be you.